To those who have been reading my blog all these days, you must have found that I have not updated my blog for a while.
And the true reason behind it, is simply there is nothing to write.
I know I may be weird when I am saying this, but somehow my mind will only run wild when I am busy or under pressure and felt helpless, I would then look at my blog and tell myself:”mmm…it is probably the time I need to add something to my blog…”
However, I do know I owe a lot of people some form of gratitude, such as my dear goddaughter, who was nice enough to support me throughout my entire struggle of the final exam, thanks a lot Dewi 
(and the list will go quite long as well)
The main reason why, though, that I am typing on my keyboard at 2am in the morning, is that I really thought it would be a great time for me to think about Year 2007, which is waving its farewell to us pretty soon.
On the up side, I have to say that I have accomplished some things in 2007, including get my first ever coop job in actuarial science field, but those are just some trivial things that I would be more than reluctant to mention the details.
On the down side, however, many things that I hope have not happened have happened, and many things that I have hoped for their occurrence did not.
If I’ve made a list for all those things, I am pretty sure they will fill up 20 pages, However, there are just a few words I want to say about.
To the friends of mine who mentioned that my stubbornness have hurt so many people who loved me and wished me well, all I can say is that once I’ve decided to do certain things, I just go ahead and do them. I confess that sometimes I did not recognize the cost of them, and most of the time I tend to underestimate them, but unless one day I own a time machine, there is simply no way of going back.
To the friends of mine who mentioned that in my world, there is only black and white, and no grey, all I can say is that I tend to look at things to extremes, but those are just measures to protect myself. It is weird for me to say this, but I think one thing about Cancer people in general, is that we are willing to try out new things, yet we are so afraid of getting hurt by them, and once we are hurt, we reject them for a long time before we could convince ourselves that it is safe enough to pick those things up again.
To the friends of mine who mentioned that I am not trying hard enough (on certain things), all I can say is that the only reason why I am not trying hard is because I am not interested in them. Well, I know someone is going to say that I am saying that only because I can not get those things done, and I would agree if the word “only” is removed. That is one of the reason, because I do not, as someone who is studying in a field that has all about investing and return, do not want to invest on things that offers me zero, or even negative returns. However, the even bigger reason is simply the fact that I think I’ve found some sorts of balance in my life, and I hate to disturb the balance.
To the friends of mine that I’ve lost in 2007, please accept my apologies if I’ve hurt you by any means, but this is what I am after all, and some times, I have to say that I tried to pretend to be someone that I am not, but it really does not work well in the end.
To the friends of mine that I made in 2007, thanks a lot for your tolerance to accept the most outlandish person with the most cynical view in everything as your friend. (No, I am just kidding…)
To the friends of mine that stayed with me throughout 2007…well, good work buddies!
Oh, finally, to the friends of mine who mentioned that I am not confident enough, I am not sure whether if it counts, but I bought myself a Calcite crystal ball yesterday, which, as the salesgirl claimed, will improve my memory and self-confidence.
And to the friends of mine who mentioned the opposite…well, you can guess the answer
Happy Year 2008!