Ok, I need to shut up
I still remember that many years ago, when I first informed my fellow teachers and classmates my decision of leaving China, my Chinese teacher actually told me this:
“I know you are smart and hardworking, and you should have a bright future, however, if you ever fall, that will be because of your mouth”.
Indeed, after countless number of incidents have happened because of what I said (that should not be said), I have to say that teacher of mine was really brilliant in understanding people.
I hate myself for saying so much once I while. Especially when I am stressed.
Somehow, when I am stressed, I would be talking like a Martian who first is speaking human language for the first time, and has no idea what they meant.
I tend to say things that are exactly opposite to what I think, and making jokes that are not funny at all.
Indeed, my extrovert character has brought me many opportunities, both in career and in personal life. On the other hand, many doors are shutting in front of me exactly due to that trait in my personality as well.
My sincere apologies for people who are hurt by what I said, and I am willing to pay all to make me really start saying things that make sense and things that are really what I intend to say.